06/03/10

My science teacher is a waiter in this big hotel, so we go for some free food after sleeping there. None of my food goes together so i don't eat it. Sophie has a slice of lemon on her plate and a spoon. I think she's attention seeking. I look over and Alice has stradled Dan and is kissing his face off. I throw my fork down and leave.

Upstairs there is a massive ballroom where a wedding reception is taking place. I find Erin, Billy's sister so i take her downstairs again but downstairs has changed into a beach. I hear Billy say 'next time just Bee is looking after Erin' and i feel proud of myself.

28/02/10

I was holding my pet mouse and it was dead.
I wouldn't let go of it, I refused outright. i stroked it over and over again and sobbed into its back.
then is started scrambling around in my hands, clawing to get free
realising it wasn't dead i let go, for some reason i felt terrified of it
it scuttled away and i knew I'd lost it forever

i thought it would have been better if it was dead, rather than it leaving by choice.
This hurt more