05/10/2013

one of the weirdest and worst.

lots of girls were all being ushered into different mens rooms to have sex. i was under the impression that something bad would happen if i didnt so i cried and begged the man in my room to not make me but he said 'turn the fuck around' and raped me. then a preist and the other girls walked in and all looked normal and fine so i asked them what was going on and was told it was a test and the other girls hadn't had sex with their partners so they got to go home. i asked the preist if there was anything i could do in the eyes of god and he said it was too late for me.
I felt horibly desperate and sad. they all left and the man got angry with me for crying so much so i told him i wanted to make it up to him and started to go down on him, then all of a sudden i bit down really hard and while he was in pain i ran out the door naked.

i think other things happened but i don't remember completely. woke up feeling really gross and upset though.